I'm pregnant!!!

On March 10th I found out I was pregnant!!  We were totally taken by surprise and so excited.  I was late for my period but thought it was because I had just been so sick and maybe it threw my cycle off but went and bought a test anyways.  To my surprise I was pregnant!  I hurried up and rushed in and showed Bruce the test and I think he was more shocked then I was..  We had talked about getting ready to start trying again, but hadn't officially started trying so we really lucked out!  The pregnancy was great, I was my normal extra tired but wasn't nauseous and just felt good.  I went in for my 6 week appointment and everything looked good.. but exactly one week later I started spotting.. I called the Dr. and they had me in for an ultrasound and everything looked great.  We found a heartbeat.. the baby was up high.. and the lining around my uterus was really thick.  The ultrasound tech sent me home and said if I keep bleeding and start worrying to come back.  Tuesday the bleeding picked up, but I wasn't cramping and still felt good about it.  She saw where I had bled from and said I still had more blood that would come and things should be okay.  When I woke up Wednesday I started cramping slightly and I was still bleeding alot and I just didn't feel good about it anymore.. I called and they got me in right away.. When I went in for the ultrasound she put it on my stomach really fast and then told me she wanted to do one that goes inside me to get a better look and to go empty my bladder.. She followed me back there and kept going towards Dr. Huffs office so I knew something was wrong.. She can't tell me when something is wrong, he has to.  When I got back in they knew right away that I had already lost the baby.  Dr. Huff was so sweet about it.. but I instantly started crying.  He told me I had alot of build up in there and that he would feel better if I went in and got a d&c.. They scheduled me the next morning (march 31st) and everything was done.  Being an emotional wreck was an understatement.  But I knew I had to be strong for my kids..  Bristyn was so excited to have a new baby and just knew it was a sister.. so it killed me to have to tell her that it wasn't going to happen anymore.  She cried but we just explained that our baby was too special for earth and that Heavenly Father needed it in heaven.  Having a miscarriage before I thought it would be a little bit easier.. But its not.  There are days that are soooooo hard. Thankfully as time goes on it gets a little bit easier, and we just pray we will be able to have another sweet baby again soon.  It's funny how bad you want something when its gone.  I think the hardest part with it all is hearing the heartbeat, and then 2 days later being told it was gone.  It was sooo hard!!  Life goes on and I am so grateful for eternal families.

9 years

It has been 9 years.. I can't believe it!  It has been 9 years of love, joy, trials, bliss, memories and amazingess.  There is no one else I would rather go through this life with. I love him so deeply and unconditionally and I am so honored to be his wife,  I feel like I have known him all my life, and I cannot wait to see what eternity looks like with him.

March

-March was a crazy month for us.. We all got the flu.. Thankfully no throwing up, but laying in bed with a fever for 3 days for each of us (Bruce is the only one that didn't get it)  Bo started it and had it for a good 3 days and was super lethargic with a fever.. Then Bristyn had it on and off for 2 days, Brody had it for 1 day, and I had it for 3.  It was miserable!  Most of these pictures are of sick kids! haha.  I felt so bad because I was sick in bed with the flu on our 9th anniversary.

-sick BoBo

-Bruce goes in and lays with Bristyn every night before bed and they send a random text to Brecken teasing her.. They do it every night and Bristyn loves it!

-Brody being crazy

-crazy kids

-Brody is obsessed with books!  Usually if I can't find him he is in the office on the floor looking at books with books all around him

-Bo is finally all better!

-I had to run some errands and Bruce was watching kids.. When I walked in the door I found Brody in the bathroom sink playing in the water.. Crazy kid!

-Sick Brody.. all he wanted to do was lay in my bed.. and wanted me to lay with him.  Poor baby

-A family picture Bristyn drew!

-Sick Bristyn

-Once everyone got better we had Sunday dinner at the park with Bruce's family.. We got a cute picture of Grandpa Nute with all his great grandkids in our family.

-kids playing at the park in our neighborhood

-St. Patricks day.. everyone in green!

-We love to go look at model homes as a family and Bo found this ball and glove chair and said he had to have it in his room!  Haha it was too cute

-kids playing

-Brody taking a nap

-Brody sitting on Grandpa Bruce's shoulders

DISNEYLAND!!!

The day we have all been waiting for finally arrived and we got to go to Disneyland!!  Our kids had never been so we were super excited to go!  The day before Bristyn caught a little bug and was on the toilet almost all night.. We were so bummed and didn't know if we would be able to go.. Thankfully she woke up feeling a little better so we headed over to the park.  Since we haven't been to Disneyland for years we had no idea what to do or where to go so we walked around for about an hour trying to figure everything out and then we went on a few rides and waited to meet some princesses... After that we met up with Bruce's family and had a blast going on rides and eating yummy food.  It was fun because Bristyn was tall enough to go on most of the rides..  Bo was able to go on a few, and Brody was able to go on very little but we still had alot of fun.  Since we were there on Saturday it was out of control busy but it was a blast.  We got there right when they opened so we were pretty exhausted going from 7am and by 7pm we were pretty wiped out.  We were bummed to miss the evening parade but we just couldn't go for another 2 hours.  We went across the street to Ihop for dinner and then home to our hotel.. The kids crashed almost right when we laid them down.  It was so much fun and we can't wait to go back!! Next time we want to go for a few days so we don't have to jam it all into one day.. but we are so grateful for the chance we had to go!